Thursday, January 26, 2012
Oh momma I am sorry I'm not there with you right now... February 9th seems so far away and I am worried for you. It hurts to know you are hurting and you're scared and yes even a little confused. This brain tumor you are fighting is such unknown territory for you and your children and we seem to continually fall short of knowing what is best for you. How do we ensure you are safe, how do we calm your fears... how do we grasp what this all means and understand what is happening to you. How much of your symptoms are from the tumor or from the new medicines they have you on and how much is simply you falling apart.... because this is all... just too much... to emotionally process.
I'm not there and I don't understand all that is happening to you, but Momma I pray for you and I know our Savior understands and is there with you. I pray you sense His presence, I pray you hear His small still voice speaking peace and comfort to you. I pray you see His goodness in all the medical staff and family and friends that are surrounding you and that are there for you... I pray you feel Jesus holding you up, strengthening you and gently catching your tears.
I pray you also understand and know that Jesus cares for Pop and He is caring for him back on the island... just as He cares for you. Pop is also surrounded by people and family that love him including Steven and his children and Dolores's children...they love Pop and they are caring for him and He is well momma. Pop loves Jesus and he loves you and you both are under Gods watchful eye and covered by His precious blood and His tender mercies are extended to both of you for all of eternity. He is a good Savior and He will not let go of you....hold onto Him momma and let Him love you and comfort you. During this uncertain time when no one else can bring peace and comfort...lean on Jesus.... stay at the foot of His cross....and remember momma... what does God require of you but....to do justly, love mercy and walk humbly with Your God.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Dear Momma.... I know this is a hard time for you and yes it is hard on all of us that love you. Its hard momma, because we love you and we don't always know what we can do to make this time easier for you. How do we bring comfort, how do we let you know that despite all the good and hard times, despite our best efforts and our failures, despite all the things said and never said...we love you ...and above all that goes right and all that goes wrong....we want you to be at peace with who we have become and at peace with what God has instilled in us.
We have Jesus momma and He has been good to us just as He has been good to you. He has held us and loved us, he has healed us and forgiven us. We are loved momma and we are forgiven and so are you momma. Please know you are loved and forgiven and life has been good. Momma its okay to enjoy those around you and its okay to hold the hands that are helping you. Its okay to lean on the arms of those that love you and to laugh with those who are there for you and to love those who love you. Its okay momma....your children love you and we thank God for you and for saving you. I thank God for the last 30 years...I thank God I had a momma who knows Jesus ... for a momma who has prayed for me and my brothers and sisters and children and grandbabies for the last 30 years. I thank God I have a praying momma....and momma I pray for you. Jesus loves you momma... He forgave you long ago and He is there for you. Pray momma....feel His presence, rejoice in His goodness, delight in His word and know you are loved.
Momma we talked about our favorite verses when we were in the hospital. You said your verse is Micah 6:8 "He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you, but to do justly, to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God?"
Momma what does God require of you...but to do justly, to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God...nothing more momma...just love His mercy, delight in his goodness...live everyday at the foot of His cross...and you will be okay. I love you Momma...and until I see you in February, I will post thoughts and prayers here for you so you can know you are loved and that Jesus is real in our lives and He hears your prayers and sees your tears and He puts you on the hearts of your children. Sleep well momma....I love you Donna